Saturday, June 20, 2009


mustard seed?

May 7
I had doubts.


June 11
I had answers.


"How much faith do you need to have to know that you are saved? That if you were to die right now, you will see the Lord Jesus, and not be in hell, but be eternally in heaven?"

The Bible doesn't say how much faith is needed to be saved.

"But I do know how much faith you need in order to move a mountain. The Bible says all you need is faith the size of a mustard seed to ask the mountain to cast itself into the sea."

"Raise your hands if any of you have faith the size of a mustard seed. I would love to see you command mountains to fall into the sea"



Lesson learnt: it's not the amount of faith that one possesses. It's whom the faith is placed in. And I know my faith, if placed in Christ Jesus, I know that He will do all that is good for me, even if I don't like it, even if it's not what I think is best for me. Cos I don't know what's best for me. Only God knows. And He'll provide all I need. If I trust Him.

Thursday, May 07, 2009


mustard seed

i woke up today with the sudden thought that i'll never amount to anything, that i will never be successful in my parents eyes. i will never earn the kind of pay cheque i want or that my parents want. the thought that i have disappointed them because my peers are earning double if not triple what i am earning now and to them, i'm just a stuck in the rut. i will struggle to own my first flat, i will struggle with debts, i will struggle to balance the bank account, i will struggle for a good life. others earn a comfortable 5 figure, i barely have any savings. 27 going onto 30, how bleak it all seems to be.

i can never be successful.







but then god reminded me. He doesn't measure success the way we mortal men do.

Phil 4: 11-13
11Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. 12I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. 13I can do all things through him who strengthens me.

I just got to trust Him and not let doubt creep in, that as long as i live according to God's will, i will never be in want. and that's His promise.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009


two hands

i've been living out of sanity
i've been splitting hairs and blurring lines
i am a house that is divided
in my heart and in my mind

i use one hand to pull You closer
the other to push You away

if i had two hands..
doing the same thing..
lifted high.. lifted high..

i have a broken disposition
i'm a liar who thirsts for the truth
and while i ache for faith to hold me
i need to feel the scars and see the proof

i use one hand to pull You closer
the other to push You away

if i had two hands..
doing the same thing..
lifted high.. lifted high..

and if we just keep digging
we can reach the foundation of our souls
and if we just keep cutting all the chains from our hearts
we'll lose control

and it feels like giving in..
it feels like starting over
it feels like waking up and you know it's coming
it feels like a brand new day

Monday, April 27, 2009


lesson one

lesson one -- do not hide
lesson two -- there are right ways to fight
and if you have questions, we can talk through the night

so you know who you are
and you know what you want
i've been where you are going
and it's not that far
it's too far to walk
but you don't have to run
you'll get there in time..

lesson three -- you're not alone
not since i first met you, being on your own
you can leave, you can run
this will still be your home

so you know who you are
and you know what you want
i've been where you are going
and it's not that far
it's too far to walk
but you don't have to run
you'll get there in time..
get there in time...

in time to wonder where the days have gone
in time, to be old enough to wish that you were young
when good things are unraveling
and bad things come undone
you weather falls and lose your hope
but when you need it most
i have a hundred reasons why i love you.. jo..

so you know who you are
and you know what you want
i've been where you are going
and it's not that far
it's too far to walk
but you don't have to run
you'll get there in time..
you'll get there in time..

if you weather falls and lose your hope
just remember.. lesson one

Tuesday, April 07, 2009


This Easter...

Before the throne of God above
I have a strong and perfect plea.
A great high Priest whose Name is Love
Who ever lives and pleads for me.
My name is graven on His hands,
My name is written on His heart.
I know that while in Heaven He stands
No tongue can bid me thence depart.


When Satan tempts me to despair
And tells me of the guilt within,
Upward I look and see Him there
Who made an end of all my sin.
Because the sinless Savior died
My sinful soul is counted free.
For God the just is satisfied
To look on Him and pardon me.


Behold Him there the risen Lamb,
My perfect spotless righteousness,
The great unchangeable I AM,
The King of glory and of grace,
One in Himself I cannot die.
My soul is purchased by His blood,
My life is hid with Christ on high,
With Christ my Savior and my God!